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#3cccJournal2TwittBook I really liked Donna and was thinking that marriage could be a possibility if she should accept Christ. But as I 0499

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..talked lovingly about our future, Donna’s face began to contort.  She started to scream and yell and I swear 0500

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..her face looked like the maniacal faces I used to see when I worked as a psychiatric aide at the Maryland 0501

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..Psychiatric Institute!  A woman who had never raised her voice and was consistently cool, always soft spoken, 0502

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..was suddenly a maniac throwing whatever was near at me and yelling for me to get out! Later, I talked to a 0503

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..neighbor of hers, whom I had befriended, and when I told  him the story he laughed. He told me I was terribly 0504

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..naive for thinking she would want to marry me, since everyone he knew, including him, has had sex with her at 0505

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..one time or another! I was crestfallen but also glad to have seen the truth. Suddenly I realized I had been 0506

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..living in a fantasy world of my own making, one that didn’t jive with reality. I was being used and using 0507

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..others while thinking all of us hippies were above relational games or manipulating people for our own ends. 0508

#3cccJournal2TwittBook After all those Gestalt Therapy sessions; after all the psychology courses I took in high school and college; 0509

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..after reading about or following the methods of Esalen, Transactional Analysis, Rolfing, etc., (the list is 0510

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..long!) I have come to realize this simple truth, except we become as little children, asking God to help us 0511

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..see the world anew through the light of the Holy Spirit, we will end up inside the endless labyrinth of the 0512

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..mind, never able to see outside our own mental boxes the invisible world which sustains all that we see. So 0513

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..called “Free” sex had already exacted a high price on many people I’ve known, including my first wife, 0514

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..Bridgette. She and I were married soon after we both turned 20. My first sexual encounter was at age 19 but as 0515

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..a former model Bridgette had been sexually active since her early teens. Soon after we started having sex 0516

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..I caught a case of Gonorrhea and knew it couldn’t have come from anyone but her. Turned out she caught the 0517

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..disease many years before, but as often happens, it can lay dormant and unnoticed in women for years, 0518

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..destroying their internal reproductive organs. She was rendered permanently sterile as a result and that news 0519

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..devastated us both. I’ve met some nice, attractive women at the Sanpaka Restaurant, like Adrianne and Cindy. 0520

#3cccJournal2TwittBook However, I decided to not get involved with either of them. Adrianne and I don’t share enough in common but 0521

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..Cindy is pretty amazing. She’s only 19 but she rode her bicycle up to Canada from St. Louis, Missouri, ALL BY 0522

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..HERSELF! She even showed me some articles that had been written up on her along the way. She also has a great 0523

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..body and we have a lot in common, but she recently married a guy to help him become a landed immigrant. After 0524

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..my experience with Margaret Bailey in BC (1970) I swore I’d never get involved with another married woman. 0525

#3cccJournal2TwittBook Margaret Bailey was petite, very attractive, and good in bed. Even better, we were kindred spirits and openly 0526

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..communicative. Margaret told me about the separation from her husband. Whether I wanted to hear it was totally 0527

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..over or she said it was, I don’t remember, but I soon discovered it wasn’t. They had a newborn and a baby 0528

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..changes everything. All I could see at the time was that she was growing spiritually and he wasn’t interested, 0529

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..which made our sharing all the more sweet. However, after a few days of wild sex and fun and endless great 0530

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..conversations on just about everything under the sun, Margaret’s husband showed up at her door. I had to 0531

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..quickly get dressed and wondered if he might be the crazy type with gun in hand, ready to blow both our heads 0532

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..off! It turned out he was a decent guy who, in spite of the difficult situation, wanted to talk to us both. 0533

#3cccJournal2TwittBook That’s when I began to see her wavering and realized the child would probably be the reason for them giving it 0534

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..another try. I broke off the relationship with Margaret but for a long time afterwards wished we were still 0535

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..seeing one another. I should probably mention the commune I started, since she was one of the original 22 who 0536

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..dropped everything to move to the wilderness. She did leave him to became part of our extended family 0537

#3cccJournal2TwittBook ..but after the commune broke up we lost touch. 0538

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