May 1974: Summary of what has transpired since February, when I left Bear River to find work in Halifax and buy seeds for Spring planting. I discover my transformation is deeper then I realized, with sex no longer being the casual, if-it-feels-good-why-not recreational activity. Did God really order men of old to commit genocide and kill every man, woman and child in order to take their promised land? Did Jesus disobey the very scriptures he quoted?